Some exhausting days here. The wear and tear on this old man shows. I have to admit that I considered the blog a potential casualty to that fatigue and time demand but in checking my mail today found so many encouraging and supportive messages that I decided to find the time.
Donna did something special yesterday, after weeks of frustration and impatience, she said that she believe she would be "fine". Don't get me wrong she is still in a hurry and still questions if she will fully regain her old form but she is realizing that we will have a good life together. This really meant a lot to me. We spend so much time trying to convey her improvements but it is hard to not see the current limits if you are her. This realization of the potential to achieve is large.
With the onset of the holiday weekend things get quiet at TIRR. Despite that we had some good new experiences today. Donna"s physical therapist, Laura, has Donna and I doing independent 1 hour exercise sessions in the rehab room. Laura has done a great job of defining the the exercises that will help Donna the most and we began today. It worked well, with Donna really bearing down and getting into it. She sees the benefit and enjoyed very much the slower paced, focused approach. It was good she liked it because it will an every day addition to her busy schedule which this week will have therapy approaching 6 hours/day. What were daily naps are disappearing. This means she is one tired puppy at the end of the day.
Also today her therapists signed her up for an outing, Bowling outside the hospital. It was great for her to get out and do something somewhat real. She spends more time now looking at other patients, most all of whom have far worse problems than she. It worries her because she wonders if she is worse than she is and it motivates her to get busy improving. I work hard to help keep it in perspective for her and she is doing well.
Today I explained to her that she has been in 4 different locations and that she has gotten too healthy for all of them. Also that soon TIRR will be the fourth of those locations and it may come in the next few weeks. She gets it but it buoys her for only a while. That girl needs results and given her challenges I find her to be reasonably patient. Far better than I would be.
Finally, like any important decisions we make in life, there is always a little doubt. Many evenings Donna and I sit together and say prayers. Tonight in her part she thanked God for my love, my commitment to her and my patience. We talked later about if my presence here helps in her healing and she told me a number of reasons why it does. She has a great way of filling my batteries and helping me to feel confident in the decisions made.
We move forward with perseverance, faith and and much love. Many days I believe it is the love that makes it all doable for us both.
Good night to all
Bob
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